"It is only after we lose everything, that we are free to do anything"

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Blackened teeth

I want to feel pain worse than i have ever felt before.
I want to know how much i can take before i break, lost to the world.
I want to embrace that moment of impact where time stands still and life is in the balance.
I want to gorge on my dread.
I want to fight.
and I want to lose.
I want to be petrified by fear beyond comprehension.
I want demolish my beliefs.
I want to smile with blackened teeth.

For Savanah

because she reads my blog too

Monday, July 26, 2010

Regret

So alot seemed to go down this afternoon, and alot a bad stuff is happening to people i care about, and it's gotten me thinking. Its not often the things we can see coming that make us fall in life, its the stuff that happens before we have time to react. This can leave behind a good bit of regret. I do try to live my life without regret, but its still different to how i would live if i knew i would die tomorrow. It would then seem by the amount of people with regrets in the world that living without regret takes alot of balls. But i really don't think so. Seriously, whats the point of living if you're too afraid to do the things you've always wanted to do?

Thursday, July 22, 2010

For My Friends

This is for my dearest and closest friends, who have helped me so much throughout my brief days. As strong as i like to fancy myself at times, the truth is i'm not strong enough, and whenever i fall you are always there. It takes me a long time to bestow my trust in people but you have truly earned it. I see so much in the future and no matter what becomes of us i will always remember your compassion. People ask me every now and then 'what am i most afraid of' and recently I've found its losing you guys. I'm sure i'd manage to go on without you but the world would truly be a porer place.
I'm sure I've sapped on enough as it is, but i really can't express how much the support of a few means to me. Its pretty much just for the two of you reading it (you know who you are) cause i'm pretty sure if i said it in person you'd tell me to shut up :P
And so with the can of corn emptied all over the floor i better give it a rest. Just one last thankyou. Without you guys, i wouldn't be the amazingly successful handsome man i am today ;D
I love you guys

Feelin' Good

The smog of my mind has cleared and i can reach out and embrace the world yet again. A deep breath of fresh air never felt better! Lightning crackles at my fingertips as my power slowly but surely builds. I see so much potential for those in my life, my brilliant friends. A new strength has again welled within me and the dams have been broken down. Piece after piece falls into place, and just when i think i have damaged things beyond repair, i am granted a blessed second chance. To quote that glorious song "Its a new dawn, its a new day, its a new life for me. And I'm feeling good"

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Memories

He stood by the base of the lighthouse as the waves crashed against the rocks. All he could think of now was home. The sun had long since gone and the wind whipped at his bare arms. What he would give to embrace his family one more time. He turned and entered the lighthouse, the weather had become unbearable. The heavy door closed with a thud behind him and as always the moonlight shone through the window, illuminating his secret garden. No matter the natural color of an object, under the moon everything is the same pale blue. He sat at his chipped table. Despite efforts and promises i hot tear ran slowly down his cheek. His mother, that is who he missed most of all. Another tear whetted his cheek, then another. Drops fell onto the table and he buried his head in his hands, all his grief pouring out as chaos raged outside. Why did they have to leave? He screamed to the sky, but his voice was lost among the sound of the waves and wind. He had not asked for his fate. It seems, he thought, life is cruel. Memories long lost return; his time spent with them but a glimpse of the mind now. Why mother? he questioned the night. Why did you have to leave me? We so seldom appreciate our lives and now there is nothing left. Alone he sat in his timeless prison waiting for anything. They had left him, and now he was lost to the world. He was broken now, and useless to the world. He knew what was to come. I love you. and he continued to weep into the night.

Approaching Storms

The air is thick with all of our fears
Children's eyes burn with
hot, stinging tears.
And all the while you watch
standing idly by

Gashes are torn through all you believe
Like a maddened dog,
We run and stumble blindly
But no matter what we do
we are dragged into the stinking putrid bog

Storms roll in and the time has come,
you must decide what your life is worth.
We have done so much evil,
we are so vain.
The time has come for our worlds rebirth.

And without a doubt, the time is now.