Blackened teeth

I want to feel pain worse than i have ever felt before.

I want to know how much i can take before i break, lost to the world.

I want to embrace that moment of impact where time stands still and life is in the balance.

I want to gorge on my dread.

I want to fight.

and I want to lose.

I want to be petrified by fear beyond comprehension.

I want demolish my beliefs.

I want to smile with blackened teeth.