"It is only after we lose everything, that we are free to do anything"

Monday, August 16, 2010

Inspiration

you are my inspiration.
your strength strengthens me.
without you, i don't know if i would be where i am now.
you have done so much for me,
and you don't even know it.
I owe you everything,
and you are my everything.
you are my heart and soul.
So much life, and so many take it for granted,
but you grab it firmly,
and lead with the might of a thousand men.
I trust few and far between,
but you have earned it.
If time has taught me anything,
its that i will always be standing by your side,
for better or worse.
brothers in arms,
looking into the face of an eternal sun.
and you do not fall.

thank you

Drawing Near

In little over a year and a half i could hopefully be well on way to achieving my dreams. I'll be closeted away, retaught in a totally different world. Before i do this though, there are still some things i want to do. It's time to start living my life like i mean it again and stop arseing around half the time. Sure, i know i do try at most things i do, but if i'm honest with myself i could try a whole lot harder. Things are starting to boil down to those 'make it or break it' moments and it really is time to get serious. I need admit to myself that at times i do need help, and there is nothing wrong with that. Time to grow up.
Before i get to the place i want to be at, i want to be able to know i can take it. As always there will be a toll, but now i know this is what i want. Even through the sacrifice I know this who i'm meant to be.

My life's passion

Pretty soon i'm gonna have to explain why i love flying in front of the people it really matters to, and i figured this was a good place to start. here goes.

So all my life, I've wanted to fly. I've wanted it more than anything else in the world. Being in the air just grants you an indescribable amount of perspective. No matter how big your problems are, within minutes you can be 1000 feet away, looking down, and seeing how small it really is in the fist place. The high fresh air is (literally and metaphorically) oxygen to my lungs and i can breathe deep and content. So maybe I've had a fight with someone, perhaps even home life is getting me down. No matter the problem, it all fades away when i'm up high in the sky. Every climb and descent makes my body tingle, the sensations of ducking and weaving through the clear crisp air. Its like nothing else on earth.
At the moment, every now and then i'll have a lesson on a little thing called a Jabiru. It travels at about 80 knots, and i find it pretty incredible. But to imagine i could fly something that goes so much faster... a super hornet traveling faster than 350 metres a second, now that just gives me the shivers. Could you imagine going faster than almost everyone else in the world ever will? Flying at heights only achieved by a few? I really do find it incredible.
This truly is my life's passion, and i will fight to the bitter end to achieve my goal. I know i have the potential inside of me, i just need to kick it into gear.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Falling away, like pieces of a wet cake

So, its been a while since I've had moderately meaningful blog post, or even one with some insight for that matter. I'm actually starting to worry, that the more maths, physics and generally nerd related things i undertake, my creativity and spontaneity wanes. I mean I've always had this feeling that I'd always have to choose either my nerdy smart path, or my creative path, but it seems the time is almost upon me. I'm doing pretty much all i can think of to balance all this out, but it really does concern me that I may lose a part of me that will take quite a while to find again. Even while writing this now i'm not making as much sense as I normally would. Things may pick up again, when i start doing some more creative pieces towards the end of term but for now I'm just kind of wondering how things will pan out.
Even if i do manage to keep my creativity going, if i get to ADFA i have no idea whats going to happen to it then. Maybe i'm just destined to have my view slowly narrowed down until only logical straight forward David exists, but honestly i think that would really suck.
One of the things i value most in my life is my creativity and critical thinking capacity, and it would really be grand to retain them. Ironically with all that said I have to go do some maths, but oh well, guess i'll just have to take things one step at a time.

Fuckin Greg

You're such a douche

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Bombs over Brooklyn

The cacophony whips through the air. Buildings are razed and people fall. Lights burn bright searing the sky while innocence is burned. There is no more life here. The war is over.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Alone

Do you ever wish, you could live completely alone?
To sit in soulful silence day by day, living on the memories of what once was.
With each day spent in solitude, the past grows gleaming brighter.
Grudges fade, and in your mind you and others become the best of friends.
There is no one to judge your past, no one to tell you it didn't exist.
Time is yours, no one to waste it away.
Leave a kind memory and then live in beautiful solitude.
As memories shine the world becomes a kinder place.
Hatred slowly filtered out only the good times remain.
Unaware of feeling, you drift in and out of reality.
But what does it matter anymore? You're reality is what you make it now.
Ever so subtly memories filter into reality, repopulating the mind.
You have friends now.
No one is going to tell you they do not exist.
And still, through all your remembered friends you remain in peaceful bliss.
Who's to say this world is any less real than the one out there?
Cities are build and razed, kings and queens are over thrown.
Millenniums pass steadily through your vision.
Histories are created and generations are taught on the mistakes of the past.
You're past.
And sooner or later, you loose your grip and fall deeper than you've ever fallen before.
You spiral down through this world of yours and start to loose track of the deception.
You're reality becomes you're reality.
As realities before it, it starts to tarnish.
No longer with a creator you forget the past that lead to the past you now know.
But most definitely one day, you will remember.
A rustle in the trees, the way the leaves fall to the ground.
Something as simple as the smell of tea.
And you will remember what once was.
And the past will shine again.